during our mini outing of the remaining FWOCers at crystal jade

Main Topic Of The Day: wisdom teeth

terence, "i thought i had to pluck out my wisdom tooth when i got whacked in the face and it shifted out...but then after a few days it shifted back again..."
Quote of the day by W.H.Y., "That's why its called the wisdom tooth."

after the meal, we were all so full, but dennis wanted to eat ice cream...
dennis to grace, "Can you stick out your tongue?" (demonstrates)
grace sticks out her tongue
we all thought he was gg to do some thing wise and doctorish
dennis, " Ok, then you can eat ice cream!"

Superb outing... had so much fun eating and laughing...
really miss the FWOCers man...
so full after that...
Peking Duck, watching grace take 2 hrs to finish half her bowl of noodles which looked all mushed up, stupid jokes/one liners by terence, dennis and lao ban niang
man, really miss those days
but the main aim for this was to send terence off for SEP in London with his dah-ling
thanks for the duck Mr PTI! (preeety eyesssss)

thanks ken, qingyou, melody, steph, joel, brenda, partner & all those who tried to make me feel better :)

ever felt ur heart aching
so badly that it feels like it's in a million pieces
to be hurt by your own family is the worstest of worst
why do bad days always come in one chunk?

Dear God, i need a big hug. please?

HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Today in the town of David, a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.
Luke 2:11

He came from heaven to earth
just for us
the greatest gift to man kind

thank you Jesus
sweet

exams's over
but i just sat for the worst paper ever in my life
seriously, i feel like crying now
pure ti kam power
i'm only confident of ONE question
sigh
and nt as though i didn't study!!!!
but the sad thing is i should have studied Ding's lectures instead of Norbert Lemmings
sigh
waste my time
finished it in less than an hr
argh crap
well the only bright side is
exams are over
GOD PLEASE LET ME PASS
I DON'T WANNA TAKE THAT MODULE AGAIN
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

oh yes!
forgot to post abt a classic accident that happened on saturday
Kaelyn got locked in the locker by Ki En!
my goodness...so funny i tell u
ok the reaction is supposed to be "so poor thing"
but if u saw the look on her face when she came out that day
and if you knew how that little girl is like
it is just hilarious
Kaelyn is only 4+ and her younger brother is abt 3
they are both very very very cute! haha
they must have been playing with the lockers in the toilet
and the lockers are big
so she must have climbed in
and ki en locked her in
the combi had to be set b4 closing and turning the latch to close the locker and then turning away the combi nos
amazing how ki en managed to do that and lock her in
Kaelyn must have cried her eyes out
cos when she finally came out (the management can easily open it with a key)
her lower eyelids were red and had abrasions
and she looked traumatized
poor kid
the first of such at keppel club

last paper tmr!!!!

BLESSED 18TH BIRTHDAY LITTLE SISTER!
not so little any more
already finished her 'A' levels
wanna thank God for giving me this sister
have a great day!

let me blog about the short 2 hour adventure that i just had
it started at abt 12 when i realised that the arena sale was this weekend
so i was determined to get a swimming costume cos i really have no more surviving ones
biking there was the fastest way: free also, and it was very nearby and straightforward
all was well until i turned into alexandra rd
didn't see a drain
and *bang* there goes my front tire
tried to look for a bike shop, but there was none ard that area
to cut the long story short
i walked all the way from there to henderson industrial park
prolly was like 2km or smth...not too sure
got to the sale
at least there were things to buy there
and i got what i wanted
if not i think i would have killed myself man
and then cabbed back
that was the whole afternoon of my studying time wasted
could have got there and back in an hr

what i learnt from today: you can do anything and get anywhere if you have time & money

thanks UNCLE YOW for the crystal jade treat
had a superb time with pearl and qingyou
had dinner at crystal jade followed by mudpie and and apple crumble at coffee club
the time spent was precious
pearl's leaving in a week!!!!
won't see her till nxt yr sept??!!
everybody's going away on exchange!!!!!! :(

this made me realise that i've been neglecting my friends quite a lot
"you have no life" -mark yap
that's the way to describe it
train like crazy: what for?
that's a good question
"in say 10 yrs time when u're clearing your cupboard & come across the medals... (dinah:there're no medals for IHG) that's even worse!!!! you'll be asking yourself..what was it for?"
well i would say, it's about the sense of satisfaction & achievement (and not forgetting, trg so that i can EAT! haha)
can't be explained
i guess that's what drives us sports people
but then again, is it worthe the sacrifice of friendship?
maybe it's only me
cos other people can still find time to meet up with their friends and actually have a life
but for me i'll be just too tired
and knowing that without the rest it'll affect my nxt trg
i just give an excuse and not meet up
i really hope i will not do that again for this coming dec hols
if not, very soon i will be left with no friends

saw a prog on the bus back to hall
abt the kids with cerebral palsy
some how, i don't know why, it hit me quite hard
made me realise how fortunate i am
to be able to even walk and talk
and be normal
I really wanna thank God everything He's given to me
family, friends, being able to swim, run, cycle, do anything i want
cannot take for granted all that i can do
so i shall stop complaining
and start praising Him :)

it's hard but
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!

and yes partner
i'm chilling
don't need to be so fierce
hahaha

oh horrible plus terrible
do relatively well in the sem
but screw up the final lap

it's only the exams
that's what i tell myself when i hear people complaining
but come to think of it
i'm wasting money if i don't do well
sigh

God please help me to study for the last 2 pprs man
i'm burnt out
no mood to study already
so sian.....

i need some one to talk to
troubled :|

quite irritated with myself
should have stayed in my room to study
just wasted 4hrs down at the dining hall
trying to do my past yr paper
with clowns like the stupid JOEL KOH WEI KANG disturbing everyone
its like a chain reaction, he starts shooting people with his ice, then huimin goes mad then the dining hall turns into a play ground
paper's in 8hrs

lesson learnt
do not study in the dining hall at night
sigh

exams are so tiring
boo
i know next time when i go out to work i'll be wishing for exams
but for now...
EXAMS SUCK!

my sleep is so chopped up into so many pieces and thrown all over the place
the naps range from 2secs to 2 hrs
in front of my notes, in front of the com, in the toilet, on the bed etc...
i've never studied so consistently & so hard before
really pray that my hard work will be rewarded

sigh
and when its time to slp now
i can't slp
my body feels very weird

i really wonder why some people smoke
it doesn't solve their problems
only adds to it
hai...

haven't had the mood to blog abt anything
busy studying
first paper tomorrow...

God please help me!

today (actually yesterday night)
i had my first accident on my bicycle at night
i hit a dog
a husky, to be exact
so poor thing man the dog...
felt so bad
well, it was really very dark
it happened at west coast park
was gonna pass something to brenda and was in a bit of a rush cos i wanted to go back to gym
so the couple was on the left side of the big pavement
and they were walking the dog, which was far ahead of them, walking toward the right, where i was cycling
i really didn't see the dog, and duh i couldn't see the leash either
and when we passed a lamp-post, there was light
and i saw the dog right infront of me
TOO LATE
brake!!! *screeechhh* (my lau yar pok bike's brakes are super squeeky)
WHAM
poor dog
we were all stunned for quite sometime
and tried to untangle ourselves cos the dog ran across me and the leash was caught in my bike
really thank God that the owners were nice people
we were all apologetic
injuries: slight scratch/cut on foot from crashing into the pedals
i think the female owner got a rope burn

second accident
Joel was teaching me & darren to ride the bike
all was well and i did a good ride
but as i was U-turning, i think i let go of the clutch
causing the bike to jerk forward
and because he was infront of me
his hands crashed into the visor (is that what it's called?) of the bike
sadly, his osh kosh b'gosh visor is no more
injuries: few cuts on joel's forearms and a dinah feeling very very bad
sigh, sorry man joel....
but on the bright side, i learnt how to ride!
super fun la!
haha...as for darren....
*VRRROOOOMMMMMM* (almost crash into tree many times.hahahaha...)

2 accidents in 8hrs
still quite in shock
both accidents make me feel so bad :(

God, sorry for being a naughty girl
please help me to be good
help me to study please
and not waste money & get lousy grades

some people just can't leave the past behind
i guess for some it's just really hard to do it
for me, things in the past are things in the past
although sometimes we learn from it
or remember the good stuff
no point digging up the ugly
or things that you should forget
MOVE ON LA
come on

i can say that i'm a very "shui bian" person
thank God
can easily put the past behind and move on
and not be bothered by it
sometimes the "i don't care" attitude rocks
but of course too much of it is not good la, duh

i miss home
i wanna go home
but mommy will scold cos i'll be wasting the electricity
haha

PRAISE GOD
God is so nice
He gave me a B for my Molecular Bio!!!
studied really hard for it, but the test was hard la
and i walked out early some more cos i really didn't know how to do already
thought i was going to fail man
but used to that feeling already
then He gave me a B!!!!!
hahaha so surprised
now really pray hard that i'll do okay for the other 60%
i'm trying really hard!
but feel that i can do better

the bruise grew! haha
it's 13cm x 8cm now
think this is the maximum already
some funny comments:

• eh, birth mark ah?

• it looks like a disease

• are you sure you didn't fall from the sky?

hahahaha...

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

time to blog about my bEEEG and UGLy bruise!
pictures!

view of bruise in comparison to whole thigh

it's as big as my hand!!

up close

ya i know its DISGUSTING!
hahahaha
but kinda proud of it cos it's like the biggest bruise ever
12cm x 7cm and i think it'll grow some more cos it's still lumpy
but not proud of how i got it
hahahaha
so unglam
wanted to jump up a huge step
usually i can, but i think i was tired that day
so missed and *ka bam*
whacked my thigh
thank God i didnt get any cuts
just very small scratchs in the middle of the bruise
it should hv been smaller if i iced it immediately
but i didn't cos i was going to the gym
so rubbed it instead and so it turned out like that
hahahaha so funny
interesting
so ugly! hahahahahaha

thanks for your camera elaine!

it has finally happened
i just knew that it would happen sooner or later

Y'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus:
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus
I live my life for you

what a touching song
love the lyrics
sing it to Jesus
yes ah

went for the cambodia charity concert organised by bizad
the KR rockers performed: joel, shili, hanrong, tim, ivan and ian
they rocked.really
i never really appreciated the rockers cos their music was always a bit too loud
and the singers were....hmm...hahaha
but this time it was different
cos joel+shili's vocals added together....DA BOMB LA!
super powerful
now i know when people say they get touched by songs
melt when they hear someone sing
wa...that's what happened yesterday la
never really been to a concert which left an impression on me
but yesterday's concert really rocked
very proud that they are from KR
well done guys!
oh and firehouse songs are nice man

my body's really getting old
i take a freaking 30-50mins just to warm up!
be it a run or swim
my lung+body feel very tight until abt 40mins into my run/swim
nonsense la
how can liddat?!?!
tsk tsk tsk
by the time i warm up, the race over liao
haha

okay, at least there was a question
and there was an outing
expectations cause all the trouble
it's none of my business so i should not care
yes dinah, just don't care.

the sem is gg to come to an end
it just zoomed past!!!!
everybody is leaving for exchange!!!
argh!!!! it's too fast!
in 2-3 weeks, i won't see mel, steph, elaine, rach, pearl and many more around in hall any more :(
as much as i wanna spend time with them
everyone is so stressed now
and when the giving's more than the recieving
it gets really tired
that's when the closed door policy begins

it's finally over
for now
had another crazy night of trying to keep awake to study
had intermittent sleep the whole night with hardly anything gg into the brain
not da bomb...nxt time will just slp and not study
hahahaha
ended up doing worse than the prev test!
oh well never mind...

sometimes i feel as though i'm just giving and giving
and getting nothing in return
trying to hang on
To give is better than receiving

thanks brenda errrrrrrrrrr for the sweet note!
friends like these make life better :)

crazy week
crazy day
i really have no idea how i survived on so little sleep
slpt at 4plus this morning, woke up at 7 for dynamics test
I tell you, the lecturer is a joke!!
haha...wish we recorded down what he said and youtube it
shall not elaborate..maybe shann will..i think she'll do a better job.haha
ok can say i gave up and took a 2 hr nap
still feeling so sehhhhhhh, i tried to study
did soooooo little
then went for a killer trg
u know when ur body is soooo tired
ur heart beats so v fast like the feeling of overtraining
yea it was alr like that b4 trg...
the 800 warm up i was alr dead
then the sets were okay, but cannot la.body dead alr
12x100 free on 1.30
8x100 IM on 2 <-- not so bad
4x400 kick on 4.20, last one did a 3.42
8x50 FLY!
almost wanted to CRY AND GIVE UP on the 3rd or 4th 100 free
cos i was just too tired and my pulls were not catching ANY THING AT ALL
my stroke stuckssssssssssssss
reallyyyyyyyyyy CRYYYYYYYYYYY
urgh
but! the power of the brain
i turned it on to the "don't give up" mode
but it turned off on the 4th 50 fly
just finished the last few 50s with like 50%

waaaaaa crazy man
i think i can count the no of hrs i slp this week with my fingers and toes
and it's not even the exams yet
molecular bio is not touched yet
siao liao

I NEED SOME LOVE
somebody pls come & help me wash my used cups
wash my clothes
tidy my room
make me a queen

GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!

so much to study!!!! argh!!!!
*pulls hair out*
i can't believe i'm surviving on so little sleep & still function properly
for someone who needs a lot of sleep
this sure is crazy
i can't even remember the times i'm sleeping or awake
i'm just drifting around
which is bad, cuz i dunno how much of what i'm studying is going in
i think prolly nothing
last night i think i woke up to do my big business
but i can't remember now...
it's like it was in a dream
HAHA
ok i'll go to the library
hope i don't fall asleep

had another new kid today
name's kaijah or something like that
he tried to 'spell' it for me by writing on the board but i didn't get it.haha...
he's so cute!!!!!!
when he was walking it, i thought he looked like kae lin's older brother
he's another water baby man!
so comfortable in the water
and his kick is super fast!
now i have 3 'submarines' in the class
take 6 seconds to blow 1 set of bubbles
really enjoying my weekends now
hope that when walton comes back he will still remember how to blow bubbles.haha
and hope that we'll get the long awaited pay rise soon

i have so much to study!
and i have no idea what the stupid notes are talking abt!
how in the world do i remember so many things!!
argh! helppppppppp....

exams in 23 days

RAMBLINGS

what an evening
it all started at 6.45p.m., with me realising my earring was gone
it was the other half of my already half missing white gold earring
that meant another $50 gone
okay, never mind...
so that already distraught dinah carried on bathing
cos she was running late for church

so i went to the bus stop, wanting to take a bus to kent ridge terminal to take 151
wrong choice.should have just walked
cos there was no bus for almost 20 minutes
looking out for cabs too, i spotted a cab unloading someone on the other side of the road
so i happily ran across, thinking that it'll be free
nooo...it carried on with somebody still in it
so fine, i decided to walk to the terminal
and of course, after so long, the bus would come soon
but i didn't care already since i was already walking
(it really did come)

thank God i caught the 151 at the terminal
but had to run for it
was already very late
and then, i fell aslp on the bus
and missed the stop
what's more, my card didn't get tapped when i boarded the bus
so when i tapped it to get off
it was for entry
= couldn't tap for getting off = pay full bus fare from terminal to terminal

just 2 stops away, i had to take a cab
and it cost $6 because it stopped at every single traffic light
i reached church just when communion was over
sigh

sitting in a corner all by myself, p bryan's msg was gd
thot all was going good...
then the last ~20mins of service
i super freaky looking man
with those kinda pervertic look on his face
(he looked like the cleaner from hall who was caught sniffing some D-blker's bra)
walked in, and i did a stupid thg by turning to look who was walking in
so he nicely plonked himself infront of me
i was soooooooo freaked out!!!!!
literally trembling...he was looking at the woman sitting a few seats away
eyeing her up & down
and looking at her bag which was next to her
good thing i saw mark yap & kat a few seats in front
quickly went to sit with them when we started to pray

then the last straw for the night...
me & brenda almost got stuck in the lift
we went in, the lift door closed and a few seconds later there was a violent jerk
the lift was like stuck in b/w the floors or something
we quickly pressed the buttons of the lift for first floor, for door open etc
thank God the lift went down again and the door opened
ended up that it was cos of a tissue stuck in b/w the door
so it couldn't close...

oh well what an eventful evening
just thank God that teaching today was gd
got a new boy called Jerrell
he's da bomb la!!
superb man...so obedient and comfortable in the water
whew....
really enjoy my saturday classes now
the Law brothers were crazily high
followed by charmaine tham and jerrell
then tze en and nicole
had a gd time teaching...

enough of rambling & whining
time for me to get back to studying!

Following Jesus: Absolute obedience, devotion & committment.
No more excuses. Lord, help me

i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study

FOCUS DINAH!

dinah shall not screw up her body clock
have been sleeping at terribly weird hours these few days
it's NOT the bomb
feel so tired even after napping

so dead man
2 tests next week
haven't started on one...

at lecture now
sometimes i wonder how can NUS hire such lousy lecturers
they can't even speak proper english!
some just read off the slides
and some... dunno what they talking abt man
haha

ok i'll pay attention

yay! i shall post again

THANK YOU LORD FOR HELPING ME
feel so proud of me self for completing my assignments & project way before its due
still have 1 more project to go and 2 tests
cannot take too long a break
guess 1 hr break should suffice

had bear revelation just now
my gummi bear gave me exactly the same thing as what i gave him!!!
the red ikea pillow! hahaha

ok i think i should go to sleep soon
cos i typed pillow as bear
talking rubbish already

my knee hurts....
so bad that i can't even kick when swimming :(
boo hoo... i wanna runnnnn....
why like that, always pain here pain there
today no headache but knee pain
pray that it'll be ok tmr morning so that i can run

i shall read one chapter of my dynamics book

wanted to post everyday.haha
but....err....hahaha
anyways, i'm going to the US!
work and travel, Morey's Piers, New Jersey
i can't wait! so exciting....
but first, gotta mug hard for exams
and next sem's exams

i've been studying really hard man
doing all my work way in advance before datelines
and studying way before tests
pray that my efforts will pay off

yay, gerry's getting married
i get to go for a wedding dinner!
haven't been to one in ages...

ok i gtg do my project
finish it up before the week starts getting busier
2 more tests coming up
then its the exams already
so fast
christmas it coming!

if my sis reads this (highly unlikely cos you should be studying girlie)
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR A LEVELS :)

feel like doing something
i don't know what
want a big change
bored
bah
ramble
whine

Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done

And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

Lord please help me to forgive

take away the anger

i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say

still undecided
make up your mind Dinah
like real soon

oh well, not so bad after all
now that things have settled down
and that we've handed over
and its time to study
things will really change when almost half the 'living' blk seniors go for exchange next sem
don't even wanna think abt it now.bleah

decisions
are just so hard to make
so many things to choose from

to concentrate on my running to meet the timing for AUG
i have to give up trg hard for swimming
and i realised i love to swim with this team
and not as though it's a confirm place even if i train hard

to train hard for swimming
it won't make my run superb
and not as though my swim is fantastic to get me some where
only an IVP medal

putting it together, just got a $500 racer bike from shihan
and i haven't been putting it to good use
cept for the cycles to work
if i wanna rep spore for tri
i gotta get out of hall
lead a crazy trg life=no outside life
forfeit all my yummy food
dunno if my already lousy studies will become even lousier

then there is handball
janice says handball federation wants me to go try it out with them
I WANT TO! I LOVE HBALL!
plus u get to go overseas too
rep spore on a small scale
but this seems to be at the lowest priority of the list of things
really boring to be running, swimming & cycling all ur life
no chance to try out other stuff

jack of all trades master of NONE

plus the weekends are for teaching
i love my job
love the kids
love to see them become water babies
love to see them learn how to swim
and when they can do it
the sense of satisfaction is indiscribable
minus away the times when i do wrong
and fail as a teacher
push them too hard
when they're only kids
and that's all i have to say about that

AND COMPETITONS ALWAYS HAVE TO FALL ON A WEEKEND & CLASH WITH TEACHING! ok la but it's quite hard to put any race on a weekday.sighhhhhhhhh

it's the holidays
there's no time to meet friends
no time to go back to vj
no time no time
is this the kind of life i want?

i don't wanna look back
thinking of "what if...blah blah"
i'm not growing any younger
and somethings you can only do when u're young
i can squeeze in everything
but my body can't take it already man
always feel so tired
and i'm only 20!!!! not even an adult

seems like it's not a big problem
but it's troubling me
i gotta make up my mind soon

argh!
God help me to choose please!!!!!


"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

please help me to live out the life that You want for me
not what i want
it's so hard
sigh

one month ago
we just finished a full week of FWOC activities
the most tiring week that i have experienced in my whole life

one month on
and i'm still as tired as ever
the activites have yet to cease
in fact, it's even more busy
ibg, DnD, ivp & school work

i'm very tired
tired of hall life
i wanna move to ridge view residences
concentrate on trainings
just don't care abt the people here
don't care abt any responsibilites

i shall be a fish monger
sell fish

irks me when people have things to say but they don't wanna say it in my face
instead they give me the black face and expect me to know what i'm doing wrong
like hello?? if i know i'm doing wrong, obviously i won't do it??
just say it in my face will you?

a poem by my dear partner

There was once a lass named Dinah
You shouldn't confuse her with Bryna
She could swim like a fish
and run if you wished
And her ancestors came from China
She made the boys cry
She could run, almost fly
And the people who doubted would join in then die
She's Korea imported
like a sassy girl true
And eye candy, they'll stare
Not just me & you.

HAHAHAHAHA. thanks a lot Mr great-poet-wong wenhong....

it's finally my turn to post sth after reading so many posts that made me wanna cry...have so many things to say, i think i won't be able to type it all down...

KENT RIDGE IS DA BEST HALL!!!
WELL DONE RAGGERS, FLAGGERS, AND OF COURSE FWOC 06/07!!!!
Kent Ridge Hall, champions of Rag & Flag 06/07

can't describe the feeling just now when we were all cheering and screaming our heads off
yes, that's right, we won! swept 7 shields/prizes, what ever you call them
and the most important CHANCELLOR'S SHIELD!
i would say that this yr's freshies won't really understand what we just won
after losing by such a close margin last yr
and seeing the raggers working so hard for the past 3 mths
the feeling is just SUPERB to win and beat the copy cats

3 months of holiday has flown by (like travelling on the time train that has wings AKA the KR winning float)
school is starting in less than 48hrs from now

FWOC has been a superb experience
so many ups and downs
so much laughter
quite a lot of tears

it really feels like it was not too long ago that we were all strangers
sitting in the SPR
eating pocky & drinking seasons tea
wondering what in the world were we doing there
wondering why planning FWOC would take 3 mths
and then we realised that there was indeed a million and 1 things that we had to do and there wasn't enough time

still remember the first FWOC fun day at marina...
we were still not that comfortable with each other
and then some how, (must be the same air we breathe, being stuck in the freezing SPR for who-knows/cares/don't wanna count-how long), we just began to stick together.really.

can still remember the trial for the then 'maze in the dining hall', we all tio gan together, but I can still remember vividly what kee long said, goes something like that: "people may say that we do not look like we're one team of FWOCers, but I disagree. When I need help, it is readily available. When I look tired, they will ask if I'm ok. F*** those who say we're not a team. I say we are."

will really miss each and every one of the FWOCers:
miffy and his acting cute & lame Chinese jokes...
keelong and his NNH, NB, CCB etc & the what say you say I say (KL version) cheer...
dennis and his popcorn, candles, haha hehe hei hei hu hu her her ho ho...
terence and his pretty eyes, chicken skin, weis, middle fingers, WTHs...
Marcus and his chao acting cute, movies, soundtracks, comics, fake gan tang...
Nikki and her ms PC & $$$$
Grace and her aaacchooo-wee, maze/castle quest/treasure hunt/LOE, collages, door gifts, name badges, grad certs etc...
Aunty Margie and her ta mother, eh izzit, nagging, nagging, nagging...
Shanny and her camera, bimbotic poses, bimbotic exclaimations, screaming at us to stop talking too much rubbish cos she can't/don't wanna take minutes...
Not forgetting Hongye and his dates with his computer, his funny sound effects, his superb acting skills, lame jokes we never knew could come out of his mouth & his heart melting voice...
Kelchoo being his aunty killer self, his lock cock dressing, his doraemon pouch, the kelchoo version 1.01, 1.02, 1.03 etc treats...

Of all the pocky and seasons tea we ate & drank
The Frisbee we played
The proposals we did
The ink & paper we wasted
The brain juice we squeezed out to think of new games
The time/brain/formatting spent on the Focus book
The sweat we sweat-ed carrying tables
The paint fumes we inhaled painting our beautiful boards+props+banners
The glue fumes we inhaled gluing our boards
The vulgarities spewed from kee long, dennis' mouths
The time wasting games which dennis & terence finally got the hang of
The flour we got on our faces
The blowing we did for the doughnut floats
The spending we did for logistics
The yummy cooked-with-love-and-eat-until-very-full dinners
The meals we had at bizad, arts, engine, ginza, imm, Holland V
The fun we had filming for the video
The laughter we had everytime (too many to name)
The tears we shed
The silences we had during the tio gan sessions
The bitching sessions (haha)
The sharing sessions
The gym-ing sessions
The want-to-sleep-together-but-never-happen talk
The number of door gifts we made while singing/watching Disney movies & songs

Argh! Too many to name!! through it all, we have really grown so much...throughout the actual FWOC period...from day 1 to day 13.

I'd like to say this to my FWOCers:
Thank you for all the wonderful times
for tolerating my PMS-ing
for being there to make me laugh when I'm down
for being the crazy bunch that you all are
who cares what the others say
who cares how they compare or rate how successful we were
what matters is we and the freshmen had a great time
THANK YOU AND I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!!!!

Finally, to my ever present partner MARCUS WONG WENHONG
Thank you for being there all the time
To style my punk hair
To have headaches together
To listen to me bitch
To listen to my complaints
To cover for me when I was sick
To take all my PMSing
To encourage me when I screw up
To give me my oranges and veggies when I need them
To share stupid jokes while doing gifts
To work hard & slack at the appropriate times
To lead the crazy Rexor
For all the care and concern you've showered me with
I am so very grateful to have a superb, out of this world partner
I've found a new good friend, a brother, some one whom I'll cherish all my life
So you better invite me for your wedding.haha

THANK YOU WENHONG

I LOVE YOU ALL FWOCERS 0607!!

And the curtain goes down on FWOC0607

But wait! There's still formal dinner & star2burst on Monday! See u then!

i shall NOT

1. bitch or gossip
2. curse and swear

bad man...

FWOC in less than 2 weeks!

Things I am going to do:

1. DIET
2. Run longer
3. Run harder
4. Swim longer
   
5. Swim harder
   
6. Talk less
7. Laugh less
8. Think more
9. Look alert
10. Don't waste time

sounds good.sweet.

reliased that CCAs/ECAs (nong nong time ago) do play a huge part in moulding a person's character
children who grow up participating in group activites like the band and uniformed groups tend to like working in a group and like the team work kind of things
and like me, if i grew up doing individual sports, it's so hard to get myself back into working as a team
or maybe it's just me?
too used to working alone and like it that way
time for change

sometimes i really wonder
if i didn't quit ballet after the first lesson
and if i continued with gymnastics to a higher level
would i still have gone into swimming and running
is it God given?was i born with it?
good question

don't wanna use the R word
sigh, i don't know man
don't like this feeling
maybe...
did i do right?
it's too late anyway

disappointed
again
yet another time
somethings just don't change

i need somebody

happy birthday to me
im TWENTY
no longer a teen
haha
first time in 19 years that i have to do work on my birthday
haha

anyway, to those who wished me
thanks alot :)

2 weeks of holiday
all the days spent at home
talking to mom, laughing with sis
superb, love it
love my mom, my sis, my bro
friends are important
but family is MUCH more important

less than 2 weeks into the holidays
already missing the people in hall
time really flies
a year is gone and we're no longer freshies
so many new friends,
so many things have changed,
so many things have happened
all in 1 year

haven't blogged for a long time, so here's a long post
here's sth to thank everyone:
Eguanas
Ron, Janice, Pearline & Derek -- block com 05/06. thanks for the wonderful times we've had together, stuffing the Es with balls that fly, blowing balloons, jio-ing ppl for games, events, organising blk suppers and the list goes on...sorry that i have to abandon u all for FWOC, but i'm sure u all will do well w/o me and be the superb blk comm that u all are to the freshies!

As a friend to Ron, my beloved mu tou and teddy bear, thanks for everything!for the hugs, the car rides, sheng siong trips, massages, treats from ur parleys, our high 5s, aiya, too many thgs to type...really look up to you as our block head who can juggle so many things!stay strong ok!as strong as ur leg muscles!hahaha...

To Janice, thanks for all the talks we've had, the advice you've given me, the hball sessions at b blk, the cups of chrysanthemum with ginseng and others which i can't think of now.haha..thanks for always being there for me, to cheer me up and to encourage me...you jiayou also k!

To Pearline my mei, thanks for being there!all the way back since IBG period, to deciding to go for blk comm together, to studying for exams in the dining hall..oh ya, thanks for being my emergency chauffer (will never forget that) and for helping me with so many things which i can't name cos it's really too many! haha..u've always been there..life in hall wouldn't be the same for me if you weren't ard.. :)

To my 5th floor short wing! Elaine, Melody, Rach, Xinyu & Steph! (in order of rooms.haha) I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! miss u all so much already! life in KR would definately be different if i did not stay with you all! really thank God for putting me with these wonderful neighbours! Steph, the naggy mommy who keeps whacking my butt(and her thighs, cos she thinks it's her dog!haha!) Xinyu, our first aider and also a very caring neighbour, Rach the ever-so-cool drummer with her hamster that switched places with her(you see, she's nocturnal and hammie is the opposite), Elaine with her Friends which influenced the whole wing(not me) into watching friends DURING THE EXAMS! haha.and last but not least, MELODY! the cutest in the wing and the baby of the wing! the sunshine of the dark wing(light has been spoilt since dunno when).haha..love you all!all the subways and shilin chicken during exams,the scaring of each other when we creep into each other's rooms,the waking of each other up for breakfast or dinner or to study...argh!miss u all! ok i think i should stop here.haha...see u all nxt sem!

ok i realised it's quite impossible to write like that for everyone, but wanna thank so many ppl too..the seniors: ben, kendrick, qingyou, yaozong, wilson, charlie, teckie, nikki...thanks for welcoming me into KR and making life her great! to ken, yow, yz & wilz thanks for teaching me hball! to the freshies, too many to name here..thanks for being part of Eblk and for making it such a pleasant place to live in.to those leaving, all the best! do come back to visit soon! to the rest, see u all next sem!

anyway, these 3 months will just fly with preparations for FWOC.looking forward to the time i'm gonna spend with 11 other crazy people.haha...kelchoo, miffy, marcus, shanny, keelong, dennis, marge, terrance, nikki, gracepor, hongye...

i think that's all i'll say for now...

after all the lies, i don't know to believe or not to believe

From The Inside Out

by Hillsong United

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out of my soul
Cries out


I'm crying out Lord...hear my cry i pray

i can take some people's comments
but the others, i just get so put off

some people are different from you
please think and mind your words before splurting them out
it hurts

haven't had much time to blog
study study study
tests tests tests
they never seem to end

can't wait for exams to end
for this sem to be over
for FWOC to come

initially it was for fun
now it seems to me that it has become real
oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no
oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no
patience patience
hold it right there dinah

the "bo chap" attitude
it's taking hold of me
bad bad bad
it's not good at all

haha it's been a while since i last posted
so much for my "try to blog everyday" haha

IHG is finally over
feels a bit weird cos there're no matches to support
some thing that i look forward to after a long day of lessons
well KR did ok i guess...
that feeling is just different

IVP biathlon is next week
don't know if i should join S'pore Biathlon
or should i take a break and let my cranky left leg get better
back, hip, knee, shin, ankle: it's practially the whole leg
although it's much better now, dunno if running 10k will destroy it
and it will be the end of my sports career if it does happen
anyway i've been swimming too much, my running is horrible now
sigh....

argh! i hate aircon
makes me feel so sick!
every lecture is like a "get sick session"
come out feeling so drained cos i need to keep chasing my nose

ok i think i'll go take a nap

hmm really weird
my post on saturday just disappeared

starting right is always important
it makes a huge difference
having the right mindset is also important
ok it's MORE important
good example: dinah last sem and this sem
i'm going for lectures, doing my tutorials etc...
and i'm actually enjoying it!
what a powerful tool the mind is

handball finals today
it's been a long season
really hope that the team can perform today
and get the GOLD!
don't think she'll see this
but i think yan yan did a superb job as a captain
thank you yan!
sometimes, i don't know what to say
WE will play well or THEY will play well
i do feel part of the team, but at the same time....
contradicting feeling

stay tuned for the results...

back to writing a mini essay for my bahasa indonesia PR (HW in bahasa indo)

didn't know people still visit my blog
this is for my dear friends who are wondering what's been happening in my life lately
well nothing very exciting
just the usual
studying and training
more of the former
have to pull up my utterly atrocious cap score
i have decided that i'll try to update stuff that happens
not any of my thoughts though.hahaha...

i need to learn how to express my feelings in words

won't this brain just connect to the right places of my body??!!

what a flop....

holding on to a thin line that may break anytime

time really flies
it's already the 4th day of 2006
school's starting soon again
i MUST study HARD :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
it's gonna be a good year :)

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence
Until You come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on Your shoulders
You raise me up: To more than I can be.