i am rather pissed
why must the stupid src pool close now
of all times!
and then have to waste !@#$% so much money
spent like more than $10 on travelling up and down to clementi pool
$10!!!! that can be 2 weeks of what i spend on eating!!
what a waste of money!!!!!!!
ARGH! angry!
and then each time go in there only swim for so short
cos of the !@#$% arm

then the issue of friends or money again
after ivp tmr they're gg to brewerkz to have lunch
this kinda place confirm super ex
so if i go, i'll hv to cab to work
that's like spending a lot of unnecessary money
chiara says she'll pay, but noooooo
i can't take any more of this treating & stuff. it's too much alr...
in fact i don't even wanna go to RP at all if i'm not swimming cos i'll have to travel back
i just realised a few mths ago how expensive travelling is
but if i don't go, they'll be like "why??!!? go support la! it's a team you know.."
yea i know, duh, not that i don't want to
but i really gotta save!!!!
just paid for the airplane tix: $1625
then paid for hall fees: $1417.85
these few days hardly used any money & i'm feeling gd abt it
sigh.........why can't they understand that i really cannot spend even these small amts?
i wanna just hide in a hole

then, there's handball
so disappointing
i just can't play team sports
feel so bad when i pull the team down
i know what i'm supposed/not supposed to do
duh i wanna do it!!
i visualise it and know where i wanna run/pass the ball
but when i wanna do it physically, it just won't happen!
get what i'm trying to say????

i don't know why i'm so short tempered these days

God HELP