HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ZHIYUN!
we had a nice lil celebration at essential brews
Hope you had a great time babe
although the surprise wasn't a success :(
hahaha
love ya :)

p.s. weelee your cheesecake was niceeeeee
I AM SOOOOOOO FULLLLL NOW
FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

MOK YING REN: SEA GAMES TRIATHLON GOLD

i am so so so so so so so so so proud of him!!!!!

what an inspiration man

CONGRATS DUDE! YOU ROCK!!!!!

come back safely :)

i need to stop procrastinating!!!!!!

it's gonna be 2008.
time flies
things change

17hrs to my paper
4 days to the end of exams
1 semester to graduation (hopefully)

it's already the end of november
so so fast
it's scary

change is good
but dinah wishes that she doesn't have to graduate
to leave NUS
KR
my friends
this slack life.hahaha

oh my poor brain is so saturated!

i think i'm getting used to the pain

hullohullo!
dinah shall smile and try to be happy!
cos when i'm high & happy, the ppl ard me will be happy too!
realised that when i'm down, alot of other ppl will feel sad too
wahahaha
:):):):):):)
and yay! zy's got a new bike and it's PINK!
hahahahahahahaha
stressed until i'm turning mad

The joy of the Lord is my strength!

last test for this week! 4 tests!!!

WELCOME HOME SHANNY! yay!!!!

heart aches
disappointed
it's suffocating
to the point of tears
and yet i can't do anythg abt it
or rather, don't dare to
pray

a new chapter of my life
exciting
but yet apprehensive
so afraid of failure

Lord please help me
to put You first in everything i do

much has happened since the last post
wanna thank God for the wonderful IVP track & field season
doing 2 PBs with only abt 5 weeks of track trg
making many new friends
and spending almost 3k on my bicycle

You are faithful, Your joy is my strength

so many things happened too
mok crashed
kep kee buang-ed
zy got bumped by a car
thank God that they are okay although their bikes are not
but who cares about their bikes man
really thankful that they are okay

sometimes, it's better not to know somethings
puts you in a terrible situation when you are conscious abt it :/

feeling rather lost now over some issues

Lord please show me the way

birthdays.just had a thought.whoever invented birthday cakes?why do we have birthday cakes at birthday parties and what's so important about that cake that we have to take pictures with it infront of us, cut the cake, etc? don't know why, but birthdays are becoming less and less important to me.i'm beginning to find it less significant & see it as an ordinary day.oh well, could be due to my ever increasing bo chup attitude which i am trying to decrease.

this is the day that the Lord has made.i will rejoice and be glad in it. AND go for my lab :(

bad friend.dinah is a bad friend.a lazy one.i feel bad :(

urgh i feel like an old woman with terrible joints

had a good day with zhiyun again
mugging in the biz lib
went back to hall for awhile where she helped my neighbour with her contract law
then a comfortable half hr jog on the grass
didnt feel that long cos we were chatting
had a nice sharing session
and then ended with swim trg :)
we shall go run in the botanic gardens soon k!

on an even happier note
i've fallen in love once again
with Jesus :)
He loves me so so much

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet
But at Your word Lord
I receive Your faith
To walk on oceans deep
And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failings
Surely would have drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be
Without You here in my life
Here in my life

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom
Truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life
And I remember
How You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was
Your beloved for me
Still You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason

sleep is good
but too much of anything is no good
i keep sleepinggggggg!!!!
escapism
but at times i'm so sleepy!

Lord please help me!!!
study!!!!!!!!!

argh!!!!!
too many!!!! cannot take it already!
*buries head in hands*

Do not lie with a man as one lies with a woman; that is
detestable.
Leviticus 18:22

seriously.
i feel like i've lost a good friend ):
don't even know if what i do or say matters

just got pics of the aviva tri! sweet......nice shots (:

me theresa & zy b4 the race

helping theresa into the water

end of swim leg

helping her outta the water to her hand bike

finish line of the swim leg

Nicholas (NUS biathlon team capt) with theresa during the 'run' leg Amputee Keng Joo.he can swim super fast!!
Rebuan and Jesper with Dr William

this race was really inspiring

seeing the disabled doing the triathlon

Dr William was shivering before the swim when he was in the water

Keng Joo can swim super fast!!
and Theresa is just inspiring

was an honour swimming with her

and there was also a visually impaired, another paraplegic & a few others
the determination these ppl have

one word

RESPECT

This post is dedicated to Zhi(4: must specify)yun2

had a superb day with the girl today
started the day with a slow jog at west coast at abt 720am
weather was nice and cloudy, but super humid man!
been like this for this past few days
super hot! keeps waking me up at night! grrr
anyways, came back, had breakfast in the dining hall
glad that she didnt feel too awkward (did you? haha)
we then headed to the HSS lib for a fruitful day of mugging
lunch with kooifei and zhixiang and zhiyun satisfied her craving of the biz canteen western food
plus our cheese sausage...yumyummmm.all the cheese ooozing out..hahaha
absolutely fattening, but satisfying
continued our studying
and then she went for lessons
swim training was so warm!!!
the water was warm, and didnt help it that the sets were tough
made all of us feel so lethargic.terrible
but overall, managed to complete the 3k that i set
so it was a happy day!



THANKS BABE! you made me study today
hahaha
hope we have many more days of running and mugging together
can't wait for u to go back to TH nxt sem
really hope you do :)



on a sad-der note
bumblebee's gonna be scrapppeeeedddddd!!!!!!
booo hoooo....shall take many pictures with it

zhiyun & me helping Theresa at the Aviva half ironman Triathlon

picture courtesy of zy.kopped this pic from her blog.hehe

God loves me
that's more than enough
right?

BELIEVE

i don't know why
it's getting harder to breathe
literally
feels like my chest is being compressed
and something is pressing on it

God please help me
I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me
Believe, Dinah, Believe
the Devil is a LIAR

Over You

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

I wish.....

God please help me

it's been more than a week since i got back from USA
and i'm still having some culture 'shocks'. haha...
like the drivers in Singapore being so impatient and rude
and the kiasu ppl rushing into lifts
and grabbing fresh fruits in the supermarket
and not saying sorry or excuse me when they walk infront of you
so RUDE!
haha..other than that, the weather has been nice here
been eating all the local food too
although i didnt really miss it when i was there

school's in
labs and some tutorials start next week
and IBG starts too
gonna be super busy
Dinah will study hard this sem
even harder than all the previous sems
well that's what everyone says every sem
hahahaha

I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength! yeah!!


I've been here before, now here I am again
Standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in
To label me a prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need You, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You’re the only one who can undo
What I've become

I focused on the score, but I could never win
Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
To label me a hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need you, need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only One who can undo
What I've become

Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

Turn me around pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace
I need you, need your help
I can't do this myself, Jesus
You're the only One who can undo
You're the only One who can undo
You're the only One who can undo
What I've become
You're the only One

Dinah is back from the US of A...
had a superb time there man
miss the US now
Singapore is definately much more humid man
i feel sticky all the time
but the sun there is much stronger
the sun here is nothing much compared to the UV rays in the US
really thank God for this wonderful opportunity
to see that part of the world
thank God that He kept us safe
that He gave me favour with my collegues & managers
and for teaching me how to be a better person
we're learning more abt ourselves everyday
and i learnt that i don't really like travelling around
the work part was fun, but didn't really like travelling
also learnt that i need a buffer of 2-3 days to get used to a new environment
interesting huh, how you learn more abt urself everyday

school is starting in 2 days
it's my final year
need lotsa help from God to graduate

I don't need a lot of things I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessing life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want when it comes
To loving You
You're my only reason
You're my only truth

I need You like water
Like breath, like rain
I need You like mercy
From heaven's stage
There's a freedom in Your arms
That carries me through
I need You

You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescue me
When the cold wind rages
And it's so amazing 'cause that's
Just how You are
And I can't turn back now
You've brought me too far

I need You like water
Like breath, like rain
I need You like mercy
From heaven's stage
There's a freedom in Your arms
That carries me through
I need You

hey all..im in the US
will use this blog
http://workingontheboardwalk.blogspot.com/

end of exams in 3 days
flying to US in 14 days
21st birthday in 26 days

birthday wish list is kinda expensive

1. camera
2. ipod
3. bigger crumpler bag that can hold my notes w/o crushing em

the most impt one now is the camera cos i wanna go take photos in the US!!!

but.....it costs a bomb and now that everyone's having exams and then gotta shift outta hall, i don't think anyone is free/care enough to help pool the money to buy for me...sobs..dinah is sad.haha..spending the 21st in the US also.not exactly da bomb......

http://www.donghaeng.net/english/hope/hope.swf

How can i keep from singing Your praise
How can i ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can i keep from shouting Your Name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart wanna sing :)

i HATE projects
in fact, i dislike any team or group stuff
it's not that i dun like to have group members or what
but i hate it when i can't contribute much
and my friends gotta do my part
and i feel SOOOO BAD
man, i feel so lousy
solo work is so much better
if i screw up, only i am affected
don't hafta feel bad abt affecting the other grp members

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
sorry muck and su
i owe you guys big time

the caffeine in tea really works man

MELFYYY!!! I PRAY THAT YOU WILL GET BACK TO KR!
QUICK TELL ALBERT THAT YOU WANNA COME BACK!
APPEAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WILL JUST CRY IF YOU DON'T!!!

hellos
haven't blogged for a long time
wanna thank God for all that he has done for me
got 2nd for Singapore Biathlon
never expected it
it won me $1k cold hard cash
plus lotsa other prizes like a timex watch, sigg bottle, blah blah
really never expected it
Glory be to God! yays!

well i have to learn to praise God even in the not so good times
it still is, but i gotta continue praising Him
just like how Job didn't blame God for anything
i HAVE TO PRAISE GOD IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES
and not let the enemy get a hold of me

wanna thank God for my family
mom for being the best-est mom i could have
bro for being the terrible, but at times really kind bro
little sis for being my little sis.haha
all the friends that God has placed in my life, too many to name
janice, pearline, brenda, huimin, zhenyi, cheliee, stephee, melfy (come back soon you 3!)
ben, joel, darren, qingyou, kendrick, ron
even friends who are far away and still think of me
joanne and pauline!
been really blessed by every single one of them

was just thinking of all the ppl that have helped me along the way these 20 years (coming 21)
esp ms huang and mr tan
still have mr tan's racers la!
everytime i race i think of him cos its he's pair of racers after all

God is a good God
AMEN

Lord please help me live the life You want me to
to glorify Your name
To be holy & set apart
In Jesus' name i pray
AMEN!

Jesus Take The Wheel Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It would been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting goSo give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

the fear of failure
it's paralysing me

sometimes i don't know if i'm lying to myself
come to a point where i don't know what is real and what is not

always feel so depressed after trainings
come on dinah, snap out of it

too many things
end up with nothing
to feel left out
and not part of any team

well done

God please grant me the strength

i want to just disappear
and hope nobody notices
i think nobody will

I was at fault
I was selfish
I am sorry

no point saying sorry now i know

you give up trying to explain yourself
cos u know they will think it's ridiculous
and think you're just being selfish
it hurts to be misunderstood

maybe i am really selfish
and everything is abt me
i don't know
i really don't

at least i know that i can face my mom without guilt now
when she said today, " when you're not that well to do, u'll just have to live without some stuff"
and i can look her in the eye and agree
cos i've been trying faithfully to keep to it
pains me to see her shrinking in size when i go back every week
and me putting on so much weight
how i wish i can transfer some of my meat to her

and now i'm gonna get condemned by my friends
don't even know if i'm still gonna be their friend
i really didn't go for IVP
today, the money won the battle of money vs friends
but the feeling sucks, big time

i must stop running away from my problems
kill me somebody.
i'm gg back to my escapism sleep

i am rather pissed
why must the stupid src pool close now
of all times!
and then have to waste !@#$% so much money
spent like more than $10 on travelling up and down to clementi pool
$10!!!! that can be 2 weeks of what i spend on eating!!
what a waste of money!!!!!!!
ARGH! angry!
and then each time go in there only swim for so short
cos of the !@#$% arm

then the issue of friends or money again
after ivp tmr they're gg to brewerkz to have lunch
this kinda place confirm super ex
so if i go, i'll hv to cab to work
that's like spending a lot of unnecessary money
chiara says she'll pay, but noooooo
i can't take any more of this treating & stuff. it's too much alr...
in fact i don't even wanna go to RP at all if i'm not swimming cos i'll have to travel back
i just realised a few mths ago how expensive travelling is
but if i don't go, they'll be like "why??!!? go support la! it's a team you know.."
yea i know, duh, not that i don't want to
but i really gotta save!!!!
just paid for the airplane tix: $1625
then paid for hall fees: $1417.85
these few days hardly used any money & i'm feeling gd abt it
sigh.........why can't they understand that i really cannot spend even these small amts?
i wanna just hide in a hole

then, there's handball
so disappointing
i just can't play team sports
feel so bad when i pull the team down
i know what i'm supposed/not supposed to do
duh i wanna do it!!
i visualise it and know where i wanna run/pass the ball
but when i wanna do it physically, it just won't happen!
get what i'm trying to say????

i don't know why i'm so short tempered these days

God HELP

guilty as charged:
Dinah is a big spendthrift

i know it la
but when mum says it, i'm just too proud to admit
but now i'm so so so guilty for spending so much
on all the little things that just add up
unnecessities, things that i can live/do without
i feel so guilty that the family is scrimping & saving every single cent
and i'm living such a luxurious life
mom always say that we can't afford to live the lives that the others have
just have the bare necessities will do
but i don't know why i keep spending
very frustrating when at the end of the day
you feel so very guilty that i just wanna hide some where
or just disappear
no self control
i think it's very hard for friends to understand
cos the way i spend is not at all like one who is in financial difficulty
until it hits rock bottom
and there's REALLY NO MONEY AT ALL
mum doesn't have, dad's not giving, and i skip work cos i'm too tired
so there's no money
no money no money no money
and when there's no money, u can't go out
and cos all the friends go out
and when u say u don't want to cos you don't have money
they give u the weird look and say you anti-social
and when you do go out, you're bound to spend some money
and then you owe friends, which is not a very nice thing
at the end of the day, i feel terrible all over again cos you borrow/friends have to treat you
there's always a dilemma: friends, money & time to rest
and i always can't seem to make the right choice
or rather the choice i make always seems to be wrong
ARGHHHHHHHHH
i'm so fickle also
i suck

i realise i'm the kinda person who doesn't like to go out
but at the same time, staying at home is boring too
so i dunno what i want
i'm weird man

anyway, THANK YOU BIRTHDAY BOYS FOR THE VERY EXPENSIVE TREAT! DARREN, KENDRICK & JOEL! NO MORE CRAYFISH FOR US! haha....
chipped my tooth while eating the last cucumber & accidentally biting the fork...ouch...

Lesson for the day: I don't think i will go to JB again...it costs too much...

ivp swimming tmr
i really don't feel like swimming
or rather, i don't feel like doing anything
everyday i don't wanna go for class
don't wanna do anything
i wanna dig a hole and hide in there forever
it's not lazy or what, but i don't know what is the feeling
helpppppppp
why am I feeling like this....

from today, Dinah will live a simple life. Only the bare necessities.
God please help me to be a good steward of Your money. Thank you. Amen.

My life is in Your hands. Take me, mould me, use me Lord.

[TeamSheares][SMB0607] LAW: KR sports sec, why dun you just play the ihg yourself? convening a sport doesn't mean you are a big F

don't understand why must some people quarell over such matters

i mean it's only IHG...

ok maybe it's that important to them....

money is so important.without money...u can't do anything :(

my weekends are busier than my weekdays man
first week of school just flew by
don't know why im so tired
didn't do much leh!
this weekend i finally gave in
$60 for rest is really expensive
heart pain man, but i really cannot ta han alr
think i'll scream at the kids if i go teach
that makes it $100 in total cos there's IHG swimming tmr
money money money money money
without money, u can't do so many things :(

I declare I am the QUEEN OF PANG SEH
supposed to go for 3 parties this week
cherie's, bao family's & joker's
i went for a grand total of ZERO

why must i always be injured so close to the IHG and IVP matchs/races?
this time it's the arm
i'm seriously in need of new body parts
all i've been doing these few days is eat, eat, eat, eat some more
and sleep
dunno wassup with the arm man
first it was the muscle
then now it feels like its gonna drop out of the socket everytime i move it
clicks like nobody's business, and worst of all, it hurts when it clicks
ARGH!
AND PPL THINK I'M FAKING IT!
I GIVE YOU MY ARM!
THINK I DUN WANNA TRAIN AH?