oh horrible plus terrible
do relatively well in the sem
but screw up the final lap

it's only the exams
that's what i tell myself when i hear people complaining
but come to think of it
i'm wasting money if i don't do well
sigh

God please help me to study for the last 2 pprs man
i'm burnt out
no mood to study already
so sian.....

i need some one to talk to
troubled :|

quite irritated with myself
should have stayed in my room to study
just wasted 4hrs down at the dining hall
trying to do my past yr paper
with clowns like the stupid JOEL KOH WEI KANG disturbing everyone
its like a chain reaction, he starts shooting people with his ice, then huimin goes mad then the dining hall turns into a play ground
paper's in 8hrs

lesson learnt
do not study in the dining hall at night
sigh

exams are so tiring
boo
i know next time when i go out to work i'll be wishing for exams
but for now...
EXAMS SUCK!

my sleep is so chopped up into so many pieces and thrown all over the place
the naps range from 2secs to 2 hrs
in front of my notes, in front of the com, in the toilet, on the bed etc...
i've never studied so consistently & so hard before
really pray that my hard work will be rewarded

sigh
and when its time to slp now
i can't slp
my body feels very weird

i really wonder why some people smoke
it doesn't solve their problems
only adds to it
hai...

haven't had the mood to blog abt anything
busy studying
first paper tomorrow...

God please help me!

today (actually yesterday night)
i had my first accident on my bicycle at night
i hit a dog
a husky, to be exact
so poor thing man the dog...
felt so bad
well, it was really very dark
it happened at west coast park
was gonna pass something to brenda and was in a bit of a rush cos i wanted to go back to gym
so the couple was on the left side of the big pavement
and they were walking the dog, which was far ahead of them, walking toward the right, where i was cycling
i really didn't see the dog, and duh i couldn't see the leash either
and when we passed a lamp-post, there was light
and i saw the dog right infront of me
TOO LATE
brake!!! *screeechhh* (my lau yar pok bike's brakes are super squeeky)
WHAM
poor dog
we were all stunned for quite sometime
and tried to untangle ourselves cos the dog ran across me and the leash was caught in my bike
really thank God that the owners were nice people
we were all apologetic
injuries: slight scratch/cut on foot from crashing into the pedals
i think the female owner got a rope burn

second accident
Joel was teaching me & darren to ride the bike
all was well and i did a good ride
but as i was U-turning, i think i let go of the clutch
causing the bike to jerk forward
and because he was infront of me
his hands crashed into the visor (is that what it's called?) of the bike
sadly, his osh kosh b'gosh visor is no more
injuries: few cuts on joel's forearms and a dinah feeling very very bad
sigh, sorry man joel....
but on the bright side, i learnt how to ride!
super fun la!
haha...as for darren....
*VRRROOOOMMMMMM* (almost crash into tree many times.hahahaha...)

2 accidents in 8hrs
still quite in shock
both accidents make me feel so bad :(

God, sorry for being a naughty girl
please help me to be good
help me to study please
and not waste money & get lousy grades

some people just can't leave the past behind
i guess for some it's just really hard to do it
for me, things in the past are things in the past
although sometimes we learn from it
or remember the good stuff
no point digging up the ugly
or things that you should forget
MOVE ON LA
come on

i can say that i'm a very "shui bian" person
thank God
can easily put the past behind and move on
and not be bothered by it
sometimes the "i don't care" attitude rocks
but of course too much of it is not good la, duh

i miss home
i wanna go home
but mommy will scold cos i'll be wasting the electricity
haha

PRAISE GOD
God is so nice
He gave me a B for my Molecular Bio!!!
studied really hard for it, but the test was hard la
and i walked out early some more cos i really didn't know how to do already
thought i was going to fail man
but used to that feeling already
then He gave me a B!!!!!
hahaha so surprised
now really pray hard that i'll do okay for the other 60%
i'm trying really hard!
but feel that i can do better

the bruise grew! haha
it's 13cm x 8cm now
think this is the maximum already
some funny comments:

• eh, birth mark ah?

• it looks like a disease

• are you sure you didn't fall from the sky?

hahahaha...

You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

time to blog about my bEEEG and UGLy bruise!
pictures!

view of bruise in comparison to whole thigh

it's as big as my hand!!

up close

ya i know its DISGUSTING!
hahahaha
but kinda proud of it cos it's like the biggest bruise ever
12cm x 7cm and i think it'll grow some more cos it's still lumpy
but not proud of how i got it
hahahaha
so unglam
wanted to jump up a huge step
usually i can, but i think i was tired that day
so missed and *ka bam*
whacked my thigh
thank God i didnt get any cuts
just very small scratchs in the middle of the bruise
it should hv been smaller if i iced it immediately
but i didn't cos i was going to the gym
so rubbed it instead and so it turned out like that
hahahaha so funny
interesting
so ugly! hahahahahaha

thanks for your camera elaine!

it has finally happened
i just knew that it would happen sooner or later

Y'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus:
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

Chorus
I live my life for you

what a touching song
love the lyrics
sing it to Jesus
yes ah

went for the cambodia charity concert organised by bizad
the KR rockers performed: joel, shili, hanrong, tim, ivan and ian
they rocked.really
i never really appreciated the rockers cos their music was always a bit too loud
and the singers were....hmm...hahaha
but this time it was different
cos joel+shili's vocals added together....DA BOMB LA!
super powerful
now i know when people say they get touched by songs
melt when they hear someone sing
wa...that's what happened yesterday la
never really been to a concert which left an impression on me
but yesterday's concert really rocked
very proud that they are from KR
well done guys!
oh and firehouse songs are nice man

my body's really getting old
i take a freaking 30-50mins just to warm up!
be it a run or swim
my lung+body feel very tight until abt 40mins into my run/swim
nonsense la
how can liddat?!?!
tsk tsk tsk
by the time i warm up, the race over liao
haha

okay, at least there was a question
and there was an outing
expectations cause all the trouble
it's none of my business so i should not care
yes dinah, just don't care.

the sem is gg to come to an end
it just zoomed past!!!!
everybody is leaving for exchange!!!
argh!!!! it's too fast!
in 2-3 weeks, i won't see mel, steph, elaine, rach, pearl and many more around in hall any more :(
as much as i wanna spend time with them
everyone is so stressed now
and when the giving's more than the recieving
it gets really tired
that's when the closed door policy begins

it's finally over
for now
had another crazy night of trying to keep awake to study
had intermittent sleep the whole night with hardly anything gg into the brain
not da bomb...nxt time will just slp and not study
hahahaha
ended up doing worse than the prev test!
oh well never mind...

sometimes i feel as though i'm just giving and giving
and getting nothing in return
trying to hang on
To give is better than receiving

thanks brenda errrrrrrrrrr for the sweet note!
friends like these make life better :)

crazy week
crazy day
i really have no idea how i survived on so little sleep
slpt at 4plus this morning, woke up at 7 for dynamics test
I tell you, the lecturer is a joke!!
haha...wish we recorded down what he said and youtube it
shall not elaborate..maybe shann will..i think she'll do a better job.haha
ok can say i gave up and took a 2 hr nap
still feeling so sehhhhhhh, i tried to study
did soooooo little
then went for a killer trg
u know when ur body is soooo tired
ur heart beats so v fast like the feeling of overtraining
yea it was alr like that b4 trg...
the 800 warm up i was alr dead
then the sets were okay, but cannot la.body dead alr
12x100 free on 1.30
8x100 IM on 2 <-- not so bad
4x400 kick on 4.20, last one did a 3.42
8x50 FLY!
almost wanted to CRY AND GIVE UP on the 3rd or 4th 100 free
cos i was just too tired and my pulls were not catching ANY THING AT ALL
my stroke stuckssssssssssssss
reallyyyyyyyyyy CRYYYYYYYYYYY
urgh
but! the power of the brain
i turned it on to the "don't give up" mode
but it turned off on the 4th 50 fly
just finished the last few 50s with like 50%

waaaaaa crazy man
i think i can count the no of hrs i slp this week with my fingers and toes
and it's not even the exams yet
molecular bio is not touched yet
siao liao

I NEED SOME LOVE
somebody pls come & help me wash my used cups
wash my clothes
tidy my room
make me a queen

GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!

so much to study!!!! argh!!!!
*pulls hair out*
i can't believe i'm surviving on so little sleep & still function properly
for someone who needs a lot of sleep
this sure is crazy
i can't even remember the times i'm sleeping or awake
i'm just drifting around
which is bad, cuz i dunno how much of what i'm studying is going in
i think prolly nothing
last night i think i woke up to do my big business
but i can't remember now...
it's like it was in a dream
HAHA
ok i'll go to the library
hope i don't fall asleep

had another new kid today
name's kaijah or something like that
he tried to 'spell' it for me by writing on the board but i didn't get it.haha...
he's so cute!!!!!!
when he was walking it, i thought he looked like kae lin's older brother
he's another water baby man!
so comfortable in the water
and his kick is super fast!
now i have 3 'submarines' in the class
take 6 seconds to blow 1 set of bubbles
really enjoying my weekends now
hope that when walton comes back he will still remember how to blow bubbles.haha
and hope that we'll get the long awaited pay rise soon

i have so much to study!
and i have no idea what the stupid notes are talking abt!
how in the world do i remember so many things!!
argh! helppppppppp....

exams in 23 days

RAMBLINGS

what an evening
it all started at 6.45p.m., with me realising my earring was gone
it was the other half of my already half missing white gold earring
that meant another $50 gone
okay, never mind...
so that already distraught dinah carried on bathing
cos she was running late for church

so i went to the bus stop, wanting to take a bus to kent ridge terminal to take 151
wrong choice.should have just walked
cos there was no bus for almost 20 minutes
looking out for cabs too, i spotted a cab unloading someone on the other side of the road
so i happily ran across, thinking that it'll be free
nooo...it carried on with somebody still in it
so fine, i decided to walk to the terminal
and of course, after so long, the bus would come soon
but i didn't care already since i was already walking
(it really did come)

thank God i caught the 151 at the terminal
but had to run for it
was already very late
and then, i fell aslp on the bus
and missed the stop
what's more, my card didn't get tapped when i boarded the bus
so when i tapped it to get off
it was for entry
= couldn't tap for getting off = pay full bus fare from terminal to terminal

just 2 stops away, i had to take a cab
and it cost $6 because it stopped at every single traffic light
i reached church just when communion was over
sigh

sitting in a corner all by myself, p bryan's msg was gd
thot all was going good...
then the last ~20mins of service
i super freaky looking man
with those kinda pervertic look on his face
(he looked like the cleaner from hall who was caught sniffing some D-blker's bra)
walked in, and i did a stupid thg by turning to look who was walking in
so he nicely plonked himself infront of me
i was soooooooo freaked out!!!!!
literally trembling...he was looking at the woman sitting a few seats away
eyeing her up & down
and looking at her bag which was next to her
good thing i saw mark yap & kat a few seats in front
quickly went to sit with them when we started to pray

then the last straw for the night...
me & brenda almost got stuck in the lift
we went in, the lift door closed and a few seconds later there was a violent jerk
the lift was like stuck in b/w the floors or something
we quickly pressed the buttons of the lift for first floor, for door open etc
thank God the lift went down again and the door opened
ended up that it was cos of a tissue stuck in b/w the door
so it couldn't close...

oh well what an eventful evening
just thank God that teaching today was gd
got a new boy called Jerrell
he's da bomb la!!
superb man...so obedient and comfortable in the water
whew....
really enjoy my saturday classes now
the Law brothers were crazily high
followed by charmaine tham and jerrell
then tze en and nicole
had a gd time teaching...

enough of rambling & whining
time for me to get back to studying!

Following Jesus: Absolute obedience, devotion & committment.
No more excuses. Lord, help me

i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study
i must study

FOCUS DINAH!

dinah shall not screw up her body clock
have been sleeping at terribly weird hours these few days
it's NOT the bomb
feel so tired even after napping

so dead man
2 tests next week
haven't started on one...

at lecture now
sometimes i wonder how can NUS hire such lousy lecturers
they can't even speak proper english!
some just read off the slides
and some... dunno what they talking abt man
haha

ok i'll pay attention