feel like doing something
i don't know what
want a big change
bored
bah
ramble
whine

Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done

And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

Lord please help me to forgive

take away the anger

i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say
i shall not be bothered by what others say

still undecided
make up your mind Dinah
like real soon

oh well, not so bad after all
now that things have settled down
and that we've handed over
and its time to study
things will really change when almost half the 'living' blk seniors go for exchange next sem
don't even wanna think abt it now.bleah

decisions
are just so hard to make
so many things to choose from

to concentrate on my running to meet the timing for AUG
i have to give up trg hard for swimming
and i realised i love to swim with this team
and not as though it's a confirm place even if i train hard

to train hard for swimming
it won't make my run superb
and not as though my swim is fantastic to get me some where
only an IVP medal

putting it together, just got a $500 racer bike from shihan
and i haven't been putting it to good use
cept for the cycles to work
if i wanna rep spore for tri
i gotta get out of hall
lead a crazy trg life=no outside life
forfeit all my yummy food
dunno if my already lousy studies will become even lousier

then there is handball
janice says handball federation wants me to go try it out with them
I WANT TO! I LOVE HBALL!
plus u get to go overseas too
rep spore on a small scale
but this seems to be at the lowest priority of the list of things
really boring to be running, swimming & cycling all ur life
no chance to try out other stuff

jack of all trades master of NONE

plus the weekends are for teaching
i love my job
love the kids
love to see them become water babies
love to see them learn how to swim
and when they can do it
the sense of satisfaction is indiscribable
minus away the times when i do wrong
and fail as a teacher
push them too hard
when they're only kids
and that's all i have to say about that

AND COMPETITONS ALWAYS HAVE TO FALL ON A WEEKEND & CLASH WITH TEACHING! ok la but it's quite hard to put any race on a weekday.sighhhhhhhhh

it's the holidays
there's no time to meet friends
no time to go back to vj
no time no time
is this the kind of life i want?

i don't wanna look back
thinking of "what if...blah blah"
i'm not growing any younger
and somethings you can only do when u're young
i can squeeze in everything
but my body can't take it already man
always feel so tired
and i'm only 20!!!! not even an adult

seems like it's not a big problem
but it's troubling me
i gotta make up my mind soon

argh!
God help me to choose please!!!!!


"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

please help me to live out the life that You want for me
not what i want
it's so hard
sigh

one month ago
we just finished a full week of FWOC activities
the most tiring week that i have experienced in my whole life

one month on
and i'm still as tired as ever
the activites have yet to cease
in fact, it's even more busy
ibg, DnD, ivp & school work

i'm very tired
tired of hall life
i wanna move to ridge view residences
concentrate on trainings
just don't care abt the people here
don't care abt any responsibilites

i shall be a fish monger
sell fish

irks me when people have things to say but they don't wanna say it in my face
instead they give me the black face and expect me to know what i'm doing wrong
like hello?? if i know i'm doing wrong, obviously i won't do it??
just say it in my face will you?